hi...
if u have read my last post, u know about my new revelation and thirst to get beautiful and the reason behind that.now read on.
so, i dumped the fat and ugly me. i went on a crash diet and lost a lot of pounds.i started working out and developed a good figure (i dnt mean to boast).then i went to college.
now as u see, a slim girl with good figure gets her share of attention.oh yeah, and so did i.i got a lot of that.from day #1, i got lots of invitations to date.and silly me, i wasn't yet choosy.i got caught up in all the sudden interest in me.and i started to date joe.
i must be fair here, joe is a nice guy.but he had a lot more experince in the dating world than i ever did.he knew that a couple of dates didnt mean we were in love.but i was stupid and didn't realise that.soon i had to move, and started going to a different college closer to home.but i thought joe and me were in love, so i still went out with him.and when i started talking about life together, he got scared(as i now know he has reason to be) and said he just wanted to be friends.and anyway, my crash diet resolve was fast leaving me, and i had started to gain weight again.
so joe left me.i was alone again, and the same old sensation of worthlessness settled in.that went on for a while.but soon, i started to find other interests, like debating and other extracarricular activities and started to depend on me alone for reassuring my self worth.i was good at most of these, and i was top in some subjects again.i was even popular.and i became one of the "stars" in my college myself.life was good.and i did some healthy dieting and found my perfect figure, not skinny but natural, not fat either.just perfect.life was good and i made some really good friends, along with some who had stood by me through thick and thin in my school life.
all this, till i met irfan.more on that, as always, on my next post.
luv,
soniya.