hi..

this is the true story of my love life..im 20 now.the story begins when i was 16 and had my first crush.that crush was on my classmate in my new school, rohan.

rohan was handsome, slim, fair, tall, and was a star athlete and school headboy.i was totally head over heels for him, and hence whenever anybody else asked me out, i said no, thinking rohan would realise my true love (!) and come to me.but lo, that was not to be.tired of waiting, one day i asked him out.that was my biggest mistake ever.i was too naive to know all the "play hard to get" and "never ask anybody out - that always looks too needy" watchwords of other girls my age.and, as i half expected, though not believed possible, he turned me down.blow!! i felt like the biggest loser to walk the face of earth, and went into a depression era.

soon my parents came to know about the reason behind my depression and drop in grades (i was topper in previous school), and the hell that followed is not worth recalling.

i remained steadfastedly in love with him till i passed out of school, and he didn't give me a second glance ever.i left the school very broken hearted.

i mean, i dont really blame him.i was fat, dorky and ugly.now tall fair handsome stars-of-school dont date fat and ugly geeks, do they?but i didnt know it then.fool as i was, i wasted two damn years over this crush.

once i passed out, i had some brainwaves, and all innocence out of the way, i learned the basic truth of life.you need to be beautiful to get noticed.that changed a lot.more on that in my next post.

luv,
soniya.